the mill.

9.10.14


first we walk.
winding through fields & houses, dodging puddles & speeding mottos, squinting in the sun that bears down.  languages fly back and forth, greetings & question, blessings & more questions.


then, after 15 minutes we round the corner, reaching the mill.
women & children come and go, baskets of corn on heads or mottos, waiting to be ground into flour for food for the next two weeks.  and as much as it is a daily task, it is a social event.




then we sit, and wait.  
we find seats on benches and stones, waiting until the things we brought are ground.  
questions of what are brought are thrown around with every newcomer: arachide (peanuts), blé (wheat), maïs (corn) or haricots (beans).
the power is only cut once, exasperated voices sigh, laughingly calling out to the power company. 

when the camera draws funny looks and laughter, we have to explain:
in america, we don't take our things to the mill to be ground, we buy it pre-ground.  

how do you explain an american grocery store to someone who hasn't ever experienced anything close to it?  as much effort as it takes to try to explain our life in burkina to others in the states, it takes even more to explain things from american life with our neighbors here.  

when our wheat finally reaches the mill, the freshly ground flour fills the air, bringing the closest thing to snow burkina will ever see.  the smell of overheated engines, dust & wheat fill the small building.




so, a few hours, laughs and pictures later we head back home.  and after all of that, it's still before lunch.  there are still languages to be studies, meals to be cooked, people to be talked to and life to be lived.  and some days are harder than other, some feel longer than humanely possible, but He gives us the strength so that we can make it through. 

lately

nine months in the country of red dirt

29.9.14






the words flow but they're disjointed, lopped together paragraphs that show a spinning mind.  so my drafts pile up until they overflow & still nothing has been posted for more days than i have fingers & toes.

quotes, verses & words of wisdom pile up with my run away brain going all over the place.  

i chew on every bit of anything i get, scripture, opinions, viewpoints, i mull them over and change my opinion twenty-thousand times in the same conversation.  journaling is nothing but mismatched words, flowing in two languages in a brain overload.  

life, family, school, relationships with the people here, family back in the states, relationships with friends i've known my whole life, everything goes around in a continuous circle.

and even in times of determination, when i promise not to stand up from the chair before the post is done, life happens.  and hours later when my head finally hits the pillow the words bounce around like a caged ball.  

and in the midst of the battle to get it all done i realized, that part of the struggle was because i didn't feel like i had anything big to share, other than those handful of posts that have been in the works for longer than i would like to admit.  

the thing's that were so shocking and "oh my word i need to blog this" are now normal, everyday life.  the things that made me stop and stare, now don't even phase me. 

because nine months in the country of red dirt & thirteen months outside of the country that i've always called home, i have another home to add to the list.  and the longer i live, grow and learn to love, the longer the list gets.  it's not just one house, it's a mismatched pile of houses, mine & others.   it's the people i've loved and have lived life with, the places i have been taught and stretched.  

this place still stretches & pulls me in more ways than i thought possible.  but he is giving me a love for the people that i can't even explain.  and i'm seeing him use us in these peoples lives…  

is it still hard?  yes, and it always will be, but it's my life now, this is where he has been for this chapter.  

and so, i will stop waiting for a award winning masterpiece to pop into my head & stick with sharing the stuff that drives me crazy, so it can drive you crazy too, because the world is a big big place and it is filled with endless possibilities.
i'll leave you with this: i don't understand why bugs, especially caterpillars, get such a bad rap, they're actually quite good… 

finding joy

finding joy // 1

27.8.14

…in the inexpressible words written on faces, eyes & lips creating beautiful words.  emotions that transcend all: culture, age, language and life, all because off the common bound we share in the One that makes all things whole. 

…in the long, green stalks that sway in the wind that are carrying the promise that the "month of big hunger" will soon be over.


…in the light that promises a new day

…in the sheer beauty of the variety of His creation

…in the little things that we take for granted, the things too often missed and not often appreciated

…in the unimaginable detail of life.

…in the "natural rights" of life, the "ordinary" 

finding joy…
in the ordinary