box of contradictions.

26.4.15

i wanted to write down exactly what i felt

but somehow the paper stayed empty and i

could not have described it any better. | mlk

my mind pings between missional theological ideas + handfuls of newly-discovered poetry and worldview essays + the importance of coffee + chocolate. of poverty, loss + pain and the amazing, extraordinary, love of our Father.

i see outrageous joy + hope in the face of incredible loss + fear.

i think, drink, sleep in the language of my past + live among others in one that is slowly beginning to feel less wooden on my tongue.

i have a crush on the sky which holds the stars, moon + sun that are painted each day + night by the one who loves my soul and i get lost in this earth that holds the seas, mountains + cities that i love.

i flip-flop between dreams of being a elegant, stoic picture of grace + simplicity and a bare-foot, starry eyed, girl with leaves in her hair.

i'm a black + white soul with a love for rainbow colors.

i'm a ripped, dog-eared journal who thinks better on a bright, blinking screen.

i live in the red, dirt desert of africa but have an unhealthy love for water + rain.

i'm a hopeless sinner who has been made saved by grace and am now forever called His.

i'm a box of contradictions with a long, winding path of learning ahead of me with an amazing Shepherd to lead me.

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UnknownApril 27, 2015 at 12:29 PM
Wow. This is amazing. Such a poetic way to explain yourself, and yet totally make yourself relate-able, completely! -Jen @ DeepInTheHeartland
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Chloe April 27, 2015 at 3:18 PM
your writing + the thoughts of this post = me smiling and nodding through the whole thing. I can so relate to a lot of the things going through your mind, you lovely soul you!! :) Praise God for grace that allows us to be right where we are.

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TheirMama7April 27, 2015 at 6:50 PM
Sounds like a recipe for adventure!
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FaithApril 28, 2015 at 4:03 PM
woah this was seriously beautiful. And relatable. I always called myself a walking contradiction. Its cool to meet another who identifies as such.
the pictures in this post were stunning. you're seriously so talented. this post was so well written and enticing. it gave me chills. I look forward to exploring your blog more. I love your heart for God and passion and love. its both beautiful and inspiring. He is using you in huge ways. Keep following Him and His calling for your life and trust Him to provide.

lovely blog. keep it up!

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K.A. EmmonsApril 30, 2015 at 1:41 PM
whoaaaa, girl. this is absolutely STUNNING. "i have a crush on the sky which holds the stars, moon + sun that are painted each day + night by the one who loves my soul and i get lost in this earth that holds the seas, mountains + cities that i love." < you = poet
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